Okay, I think I've figured out what my problem is. The fact that I'm posting unpolished chunks of the story is what's making me really doubt what I've written and want to go back and start over again.
Because what it feels like is posting fic to no response, even though I know that the reason people are not commenting is likely not really that it sucks, but that they're too busy with their own stuff to read, or that there's not really anything to comment on
with such small chunks, etc. But it's still the same feeling of posting something and then a letdown when I check my email the next day and find no one's commented.
So then even though I know logically why people probably didn't comment, I still go oh fuck, it was boring, it sucked, etc. and I want to go over it and rewrite, but if I do that, then I won't have time to write new stuff, and even if I do edit and rewrite, that's still not going to mean anyone's going to comment on the next section, so it's just going to get worse and worse as the story goes along.
I also worry that if people read it as I'm posting, then they won't bother reading when I post the final version, and thus won't bother commenting.
So! For my own peace of mind, I'm going to stop posting the sections as I write them. I'll still be talking about the story as I write it, as I am wont to do, but I don't think I'll be posting any more of it til it's all done. Sorry about that! If I'd realised how much it would fuck me up, I'd not have done so to begin with.
In happier writing news, one of my fics (You're a Little Late
) was chosen as editor's choice at The Quidditch Pitch
, and two others of my fics (No Understanding no Sound from Above
and Getting a Bit Obsessed
) are up for voting in the readers' choice polls. *chuffed*
Remind me again why I don't
go over to the dark side
devote myself wholly to HP? Cause it's so tempting. But no, I have loads of Judewan ideas, and other RPS, and rarelit and film stuff. But gah. It's so nice to be in a big, active fandom.